Thursday, January 8, 2009

TODAY I JUST WANT!!!!

Today I sit here and think about the fact that we have been doing this adoption for 2 years. I am struggling. I want so much...
I want to see our little guy...other than in my dreams!
I want to look into the crib and see our little guy laying there!
I want to watch him walk to his Daddy when he walks in the door from work!
I want to watch our little guy playing with his brother and sisters!
BUT MOST OF ALL...I WANT TO HAVE HIM IN MY ARMS!

I know we are closer to getting him. I know that God has already picked him out for us. I know that God is holding us up as we continue this journey. I know that God will give me peace that I will survive this journey and be better for it!

BUT for now...right this minute...I WANT!!!

Blessings~
Tina

2 comments:

Meg DeZutti said...

Tina -- we have been in this for 15 months and I was thinking the same thing today. But then I realized all the things I DON'T KNOW. All the factors at play. Maybe your baby boy is staying with his birth family longer, and giving them such a joyous blessing with his presence. His mom is having to make the touchest decision in her life -- giving her son a better life by losing him. She's probably holding onto him a bit longer to try to accumulate enough memories of him to last the rest of her life. He is surely the bright-spot in her difficult life, so try to celebrate the joy he is curely bringing her right now. I dont' know if that helps, but it helps me. Big hugs!

Missy said...

Some days the waiting is easy...others, not so much!! We're all right there with you!!!!