Sunday, March 22, 2009

FREE TO BE REAL...

I must say that right now my spiritual cup is full! I returned this evening from an E-Women conference. I heard many speakers. Some I have heard speak before and others were new. I was able to hear from a young woman who was from Africa and was a child that was sponsored through COMPASSION. Her story was amazing! She certainly tugged at my heart strings!! I heard wonderful Christian music from some of my favorite artists! The theme was "Free to be Real". How often do we truly feel free to be our real selves? We feel like we need to be the "perfect" wife, mother, friend, teacher, worker...the list could go on forever! It is hard to allow someone to see us in a "real" state! To see us broken or hurting...maybe angry and frustrated...
I am a lot like this! It is hard for me to allow others to see that sometimes I fail at keeping my home tidy and organized. Sometimes I fail to be a good wife. Sometimes I fail to be a good mother! And yes even sometimes I fail to be a good Christian! But I am so thankful that God is a forgiving God! And He does not expect us to be perfect but He does want us to be real...to be ourselves and to give it all over to Him!
I was able to see God work this weekend in ways I am not sure I have ever really seen before. I watched my sister give support to a woman who's husband died on Christmas night without even knowing that last bit of info. She just felt this ladies heart and knew she needed support! AMAZING!! I watched almost 3000 women support one another in love and prayer! AMAZING!! Giving hugs to complete strangers just because...
The funnest part of the weekend was spending 2 nights in a Hotel with my sister, Mom, cousin, and aunt! We laughed...cried...tried to sleep...and laughed some more! So...my cup runneth over!
I was away from the computer for almost 3 days. I was able to think of more than just our adoption. It was still there in the back of mind BUT it was not the most important thing for those few days. I was able to be real and feel God filling me up!

To my Amazing sister...Thank you so much for taking me. I really needed this. You are amazing. To see you touch people that you don't even know. I was so moved this weekend but you truly showed me more than any of those speakers! I know that is what I was supposed to get out this trip. I can not wait for the day when you are the one standing before thousands of women giving your testimony! I promise to be sitting front row center! I pray for you my best friend! God has a purpose for you and I can't wait to see it unfold. YOU ARE P*R*E*T*T*Y!!!!

Mom...I had a great time this weekend. Thank you for sharing it with me. It is so great to be able to share our love of Christ together. I am so proud of you for how you are allowing God to work in your life to make yourself a better wife. Thank you for being an example to me and to others! I love you.

Aunt Carol...Thanks for helping Cindy get us all together. I so love being with you and sharing our love and passion for Christ together. I am thankful to have an Aunt who is like a second Mom to me. You have taught me so much about being a Mom and I am so blessed to have you in my life!

Rachel...Thanks for sharing our weekend with us. You are such a beautiful girl both inside and out! I can not wait to see what God has in store for you. Remember to be strong and keep on the path! I will be praying for you!!

I hope you all had a blessed weekend!

Tina

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